Seven years has passed since I wrote my first NaNoWriMo novel. It was called
Of a Demon, and it was about an organization of psychics who policed themselves, except for one (the main character) who they suspect killed his twin sister in order to absorb her power, but actually he was framed. It was awful, in fact the worst, and this is not surprising. I didn't expect to do anything with it. I just wanted to finish a novel.
My best NaNoWriMo novel was the fourth. It was called
Stephen's Story and it was the expanded story of a character from another novel I'd written. He was a member of an intelligence service and had a failed marriage and too many secrets to keep. It's the only one of my NaNo novels I enjoy re-reading. I have to wonder: is it the best because I was already familiar with the world and the character? Was it the best story idea full stop? Or did I peak there in 2007, and that's it?
This year's NaNoWriMo novel is more like my third: more experienced and coherent than the first and second, not nearly as inspired as the fourth, or even the fifth. So maybe I did peak. Great.
There's a competition in Canada and the US called
The William Lowell Putnam Competition, administered by the Mathematical Association of America since the 1930s. The median score is something like 2 out of 120. It's what you might call "fiendishly difficult," or at least it takes a certain kind of mind and certain kinds of skills.
When taking Mathematics at university, you're told about the competition in 1st year, but it's 2nd year when you're most encouraged to enter. In 1st year you don't have the skills, in 3rd year you know too much. There's a pretty middle-ground where you know enough without all those facts complicating your pure understanding of the math. Lovely.
Some people defy these statistics. A professor of mine at the University of Victoria is known for doing well every time. Somehow he can figure out these problems without letting his years of experience cloud his understanding. It's a gift.
I didn't have that gift with the Putnam Competition. And I wonder if this is what has happened to my NaNoWriMo output. I learned what I could learn about producing a novel in 30 days, and then I learned too much, or I tried or expected or demanded too much. So I can't get back to that pure understanding of what I was actually trying to write in that timeframe. I've overcomplicated my skill-set. I've un-learned my naivity. Put me out to pasture with a
Moleskine and a fountain pen.
Or maybe this is just an excuse because I've reached the notorious second week of NaNo, when the book can seem to fall apart beneath your sore and frantic fingers, all great plans for nought. I should really just get back to writing. The third week is bliss.
Man interrupted at his writing (1635) by Gerrit Dou